Somehow in someway I was blessed with the gift of words.
I enjoy writing. I enjoy being able to get the thoughts and ideas out of my head into words that others might be able to understand and have some relation to. I enjoy being able to make a picture form from syllables instead of brush strokes. I enjoy being able to tell a story from my point of view or an experience that I went through that I felt that I should share. I enjoy writing, but yet I feel that I don’t know how. I enjoy writing.
Getting words on paper or into a text editor is the easy part. It doesn’t take much to start and before you know it you have a whole page filled up with words, sentences, grammar, punctuation and everything else that it takes to make a piece of writing. But yet, that is still the hardest part.
Some people get paid to write. Some people get awards for their writings. Some people write just to write. Some people write because they want to be heard. Some write because that is what they thought that they should do, while others write because it is mandated of them to do so. The only thing in common between all of them no matter what language the writing is in they all serve a purpose on an idea, subject or topic of interest. When you don’t have any of that, how are we able to even to begin to write?
I have lived an interesting life and had many opportunities to document the world around me, but I didn’t take the advantage of those times. I have always looked at my ability to be able to write as something that I was just naturally gifted with, not something that might be a use or lose situation. I was horrified when it came to my attention that such was so. Being in the Army’s Infantry didn’t give me very many opportunities for me to showcase my skills in being able to control words and make them into something beautiful, but the more that I was taught how to move, suppress and kill the enemy, the more I was being pushed away from my gifted talent that helped give me my freedom of expression.
I tried time and time again to be able to get words that I felt were good enough out onto paper, but I would find myself lost looking for words to pull to provide the exact meaning to my works. The harder I tried the more I would find that punctuation, grammar and even my vocabulary had all disappeared. I was devastated. I would start working on something only to quit. Only to stop mid story, to see a piece of work that I wanted nothing to do with and I would discourage myself or worst just try to give up writing all together.
Luckily for me, I had friends and family members who would push me to continue to write. Who constantly got on my back when I was feeling worthless about my abilities and who made me continue to produce stuff even when I didn’t think it was adequate. Although, every time I wanted to quit, I kept pushing myself to continue to write even if I had nothing to write about, but to just get words on a piece of paper.
Reading is definitely a plus for writers. I can not tell you how much you gain from reading. It allows you to learn new words and how to use old ones. It reminds you that punctuation, grammar and sentence structure is a thing. It helps you remember that there are a ton more voices than first person and there are ton of different ways to get out what you want to mean in a way that is significant to you. Even if you don’t relate to a story or an article is great to continue to learn, to expand and to grow. At the end of the day, I always feel better after reading something instead of allowing myself to mash my brain from television.
At the end of the day I am glad that I didn’t give up on being able to write. Even though I am not a professional writer and I know that I have a lot to continually learn as I go about my journey in writing, I know that if I keep producing content, that somehow and in someway it might evolve back into pieces that I am excited to share and might be able to touch at least one person with the words that I put out there.
I will continue to write just to write, because I love writing. I will continue to try to use the best words and the best of my vocabulary to continue to create pieces that I will be proud to share. I will continue to write because that it is part of me and how I express myself. I will continue to write just to write.