Forever more did I want to jump over the hedge to reach the other side. Maybe there was more there. Maybe there was more to be had. I didn’t until now. I only knew that I had one option for this fast paced life to continue and that if they were to come knocking on my door that was the only place for me to run and hide.
It is so awesome that I guess I was able to realize this before it was too late. Maybe it was why I always seemed to stay up on the contemplation. Why somehow I would make it out alive when everyone else was fed to the Sharks. I played it risky, but for the most part I had always come out on top. This time hopefully wouldn’t be any different.
Everything could come crashing to an end. Everything was nothing, but blurred lines. Sometimes it was hard to tell which way was up or down. I had been trying to make sense of it all, but somehow it always seemed to make sense in some weird fucked up way. I wish that somehow I could tell what was going on, but at the same time just living in the now allowed for me to process through the lines at a even pace that did not cause any anxiety.
It excites me to embrace the unknown, to experience the new and the embrace what life had to offer me. I didn’t truly ever want to have a plan on things. I just let life take me away at the pace that it did and it worked out for me in the most part. Exciting as it was though, I knew that one day it would all catch up to me and my eccentric life style.
I don’t know why I thought that maybe they were close to me. I didn’t have any really conclusive piece of information that they were on to me, but at the same time I knew deep down that somehow they knew. They knew and I would probably be caught off guard once they came for me. It was only a matter of time, but at least I had now to enjoy. In the end that is all that mattered.
How I got to this point, I don’t know. Maybe it was a mixture of bad luck and good luck. Maybe it was just fate and I exploited all of the gifts that she had given to me. Maybe it was the course that I was always headed for since birth, but whatever the reason it was, I was on a path that I seemed to no longer be in control of. The good life was most likely going to run out.
Maybe not though. All I had to do was make it over the hedge. All I had to do was get to the other side. They wouldn’t be able to stop me now. They wouldn’t be able to allow for me to meet my demise. They wouldn’t be able to stop me. I would be free once again. I would be entitled to convince Lady Luck to be on my side once again.