Hi, I’m Maya a 24 year old mtf. I am from Venice, California born and raised. I have started hormones on April 4th of this year. I joined the Army in January 2009 and will be out January 2015 (I joined because I thought that the Army could make me more of a man, but made me realize how much more of a woman I am).
I am also married to my lovely wife Jessica. She is an amazing wife wanting to perform her duties as a wife for her husband, who is a man. She will deny out of her love for me these feelings, but we both know that she wishes I would not transition. I don’t want to lose her from my life, but having to choose her happiness over mine seems to put a toll one me that feels like I am having to pay with every last ounce of energy I have. I don’t want to have to think of dealing with all of this on my own, but as I see it, I have to move on to what I need in my life to make me happy because at the end if the day the only person that I have to deal with is me; the only person I see in the mirror is me and I don’t like what I see.
If you would like to know more about me, please don’t hesitate to ask.
Transitions 
Hi Maya. I don’t know if you and your wife go to the movies…but a film called Laurence Anyways is coming out and in it the couple is going through transition. Thought it might be a fun way for your wife to think about how to embrace this? You all are so young. Everything is possible for you two in my book.
Nice blog in between.. xoxo
Wow thanks! I really appreciate that. I know she tries really hard to keep the relationship with me and we are young, so hope she grows with me. It is just hard for her when she planned out her life thinking it was going to be one way and then that whole world goes topsy turvy. Also thank you for the movie suggestion. We are probably going to go see it. 🙂
It’s lovely how you two love each other. And I know what you’re saying, and as we grow, changes occur that challenge the original deal — in life. I think very few couples avoid that, though one might have a big problem with the change and lie for a bit.
Still people who really love one another have the best chance (thinking of you two).
Anyway, yes go see it. It was EXCELLENT. Though 3 hours. =)
Thanks again. I appreciate it 🙂
You got it. 🙂 🙂